Saturday, January 16, 2010
Hope is such a precious thing
without it, there is no strength or motivation in our lives,
or the point of going on.
Hoping in the wrong things on the other hand is self decieving,
and when those things let us down, hope is destroyed even more
But my hope is in the Lord
and is on that foundation of rock
and it shall never be shaken
Sunday, December 27, 2009
i was told to search myself, and i did a little.
no more wallowing in self pity for my circumstances,
no more treating others with contentment because of how they treat me.
no more being thrown around by my emotions, by my flesh.
I have said these things to YOU that by means of me YOU may have peace. In the world YOU are having tribulation, but take courage! I have conquered the world.” - John 16:33
what do we have to fear
i can shape my surroundings, they shall not shape me.
my resolve for 2010
Merry Christmas, and happy new year (:
Friday, December 25, 2009
its the end of the year again, and another year in army
its time to stop acting like a kid, and live like a man
a time like this is when im not sure what the future holds,
and unsure about the happenings tomorrow.
But God holds all my days, and ill leave it as that and not worry
2010, i will grow up, i resolve to.
Monday, June 29, 2009
its been 7 months into 2009, 7 months into army life.
nothing has been particularly difficult or painful, but life has become stale.
little enthusiasm arises from me, little meaning or magic seems to appear.
of course attributed to my lack of focus.
its just been passing time and trying to have as much fun as possible at the same time
i seem to have lost the heartfelt motives i had in everyday, and i just pray to be really living again.
Sunday, May 17, 2009
Havent posted in awhile
Life has been as usual. NS is NS, what can one expect (:
but it hasnt really been the circumstances in there that has been bugging me
its been the climate of negative attitudes and bad influence that has been.
And of course my own spiritual health when i dont keep it in check.
Still i have been learning many lessons and growing much, thanks to the grace of God that has been holding me down and not allowing me to run to far, as well as the influence of my wonderful girlfriend.
Oh yeah every bookout has been awesome (:
Sunday, April 05, 2009
Long time since my last update, so here goes (:
Life has been really great since BMT ended.
The end of life in zulu, where we had avg 1/2 hour admin time, hardcore discipline and so on.
Hardly time to breathe and reflect or anything of that sort, it was just flowing through 9 weeks.
But life is really different now, and its a real blessing to be in armour.
The pay, accommodation, prestige, respect one gets out of it is definitely nothing compared to going to ocs, but i so enjoy the amount of time i have, to read, to call, to do my qt, and basically manage my life once again. The greatest blessing is being able to experience God now regularly everynight. The chance to live life to the max, even in army, something i cannot do in ocs due to the lack of time to manage myself.
Plus the time out of camp with you is well cherished too (:
Saturday, March 07, 2009
Coldplay - The Scientist
Come up to meet you, tell you Im sorry
You dont know how lovely you are
I had to find you, tell you I need you
Tell you I set you apart
Tell me your secrets, and ask me your questions
Oh lets go back to the start
Running in circles, coming up tails
Heads on a silence apart
Nobody said it was easy
Oh its such a shame for us to part
Nobody said it was easy
No one ever said that it would be this hard
Oh take me back to the start
I was just guessing at numbers and figures
Pulling your puzzles apart
Questions of science, science and progress
Do not speak as loud as my heart
Tell me you love me, come back and haunt me
Oh and I rush to the start
Running in circles, chasing our tails
Coming back as we are
Nobody said it was easy
Oh its such a shame for us to part
Nobody said it was easy
No one ever said it would be so hard
Im going back to the start
My favourite song, and i only really looked at the lyrics recently, to realize its about God. I have listened to this song at least 500 times but yet strangely never got tired of it.
And i really think it speaks to me as well as many other Christians who go round and round with their relationship with God, failing time and time again, to go back to where we started.
Doing the same thing right now, struggling with my circumstances and wishing (desperately) things would turn out the way i want them, hoping God would change things to my desires. My 2 years depend on this.
On a happier note
Thank you sharyl for always being my unending support and joy.
