Wednesday, December 27, 2006
the most difficult position.
i like freaking swamped.
i love all my friends. esply my rili close ones.
zoey, yuanhao, song, xinfu, *edit* ALEX LUA
but i really duno what t do lah. im very pissed n mixed up right now. i realized im really an idiot. yea one freaking idiot. im just really pissed at myself now.
but suddenly God whispers to my ear. n tells me He just wants me to realize stuff, and grow up. n to take all this burden of me. yea
i hope my friends understand
i have the most loving crew ever. ill always count on those 3 guys. song yuanhao n xinfu + alex
and "sorry for being a jackass" was my nick some time ago. i noe i screw up alot. i noe im really a jackass. but im trying. im trying to change. but im always so swamped by feelings that i dont think straight.
i noe im immature, i noe i dont get things right most of the time. i fumble, i screw up, i dont obey Him. i hurt my friends, i dont appreciate dem. im sthns selfish, insensitive, only thinking about myself. and im saying now im SORRY.
i really thank God that Hes giving me this chance to change. ill get stronger, ill become a better person. but in the mean time. please be patient, God isnt done wid me yet. if u cant stand sthn about me. pls tell me. i take critism very well. i dont get hurt by wad ppl think about me. ill take it as a chance to expose the flaws in me like God has done tonight. i want to grow up. so dose hu belief in prayer, pls do =) tks guys i love u tons
