Thursday, December 28, 2006
i feel lyk bloggin about setbacks that get people down. cuz thats what have been closest to my heart these past few weeks during the holidays. my closest friends, crew during this holiday have had experiences of deep hurt, rejection, setback, depression, and emo-ness
especially me
but on monday. when i was feeling really sick n down. God showed me a light. He showed me its just my emotions n fatigue clouding my mind. He showed me that He was still there, my friends were still there, my life is wonderful, and most importantly, He got me to look forward to heaven. in addition wid His promise to heal. i was instantly joyful. i guess i took a year to realize why Christians are always joyful, no matter the conditions.
rejection, is wad some of us faced too. and it can really get a guy down really bad. i didnt do much cuz i was totally swamped by emotions den. but haha, at least i knew it wasnt the end of the world. even tough i didnt take it like a man den, ive learnt from it. i mean after the experience, God humbled me a whole lot. enough to see the flaws in my actions, and really got me to mature. theres a light at the end of the tunnel everytime with God.
anw wad ive learnt is. not to concentrate on the bad things that have been going on. your life may have changed. but your friends havent, they are still there for you. your future hasnt. you get to go to sch, get a degree, and have a bright future while kids in africa are starving on the streets. Most importantly, God doesnt change, never. Your salvation doesnt change too. God will still be there, and when u call upon Him, wads the depression compared to the wonderful things He can do and has promised to do.
i guess the worse thing to do is to just carry on in depression and selfpity, and wanting ppl's symphathy. "cheer up!" " ill always be here for you" which is wad i have done many times in the past. i guess its mainly cuz of teenage angst i guess. THE WORLDS NOT ENDING. get up. learn wad u can from it. ask God to reveal what He wanted to teach you. theres always light at the end of the tunnel.
but i do understand how negative emotions can be so overpowering, and can cloud our minds. yup so for everyone out there today hus hurting, ill be praying you find your way tru