Thursday, January 18, 2007
a week of school has passed.
the Lord has showered me with soo many blessings.
A great class, good teachers, new friends. i couldnt ask for more.
but yet school seeps me away.
no, i allowed school to seep me and my spirit away.
why? ive went for every morning prayer meeting, starting school on a good note.
desiring, thirsting so show Gods love tru me.
hungering for fellowship
but school has many unseen evils
the devil takes every opportunity
to pull me away
its tempting! lusting after what i used to love
back in the days
so i run after it
chasing and chasing
forgetting to look back
as i run on, im sapped of strength
i call upon God for strength and stamina
through christ who stregthens me, i can do all things
its not answered.
i try to turn back
to change my actions
but trapped behind these bars
i sat and tought of the reasons
as i start to fade away.
He walks through the darkness
broke my chains, released the pain
"you are free, follow me."
im not trying to act emo or whatever. it is just so amazing what God has done for me, when i am totally un deserving of it. i lusted after things that is not His, and lost my focus. trying to serve 2 gods, it doesnt work.
since the start of the school start proper (lessons) ive totally been bombarded by the new culture, and all the things that would pull me away from God. mainly the craving of popularity and stuff - i admit, i was very tempted by all that. i tought there wasnt much wrong with it. but i lost my focus. but now its back. and ive actualyl broke a barrier, realizing some realities of this world.
but seriosly, thank God for the prayer meetings, the people who organized them and make them possible. and of course thank God for giving me these trails, and making me stronger.
now my only wish is to serve others, show them love, like how Jesus has showed me such amazing love.
