Wednesday, March 07, 2007
After catching up with zoey for awhile realized even tough i try hard to be strong, to be always happy, inside, i was waiting to collapse.
My foundation isnt clear, im just being wavered by circumstances, pulled around by feelings.
Well.. all i want now, is to put away all the facades, all the imagery, all the politics, all the judgements, all the jealousy, all the wanting to be someone bigger. im really tired of all of that, seriosly.
what i want, i just want to be totally sincere, with everyone. i just want to be a loser.
also struggling with belonging somewhere, the shitty part about having 6 different classes with different people. but well, i always knew that i can belong anywhere with Jesus, i should treat school as an opportunity for Him to bring me around to who He wants to. struggling with letting Him take over every single part of my life i guess.
every thing i say or do comes from the state of my heart. im gonna keep it pure.
