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Monday, April 02, 2007
just trying to sort out my toughts n my aims now.
been thinking alot about my own character, as God had led me too.
i get tempted very easily to just follow the ways of the world and do things a solid christian wouldnt. things that i wouldnt be able to face God with, not able to face my own integrity with.Which led me to realize, as much as i used to think so, i dont have a great character.
today, from the start of the day, i was trying to keep one thing in mind- to think of others, not myself. i finally realized why people say, true joy only comes from giving. it IS true. when my focus shifted from myself to others, i tend to forget my needs and cravings, only thinking of how i can make another's life better. and if im able to, the joy is indesribeble.
another thing that has become very prominent since campaign week started, is judging others. many, including, and maybe especially me, have been judging others, giving very one sided views " this guy cant make it" "this guy is messed up" "this girl is so arrogant".God has been bugging me by my ear that this isnt true. everyone has their flaws. give people a chance to change, and not merely judge them.
linking this back to my own character, i realized it leaves much to be desired. so, if others were to judge me like how i judge others, i would be pretty screwed too. so i shouldnt be a hypocrite n judge others as if i am perfect in the same areas.
Since quite a long time ago, God has been telling me - CHARACTER REFORM!!! i think i can finally see it nearing, and me going to change. someone that shines for Jesus, and closer to what God desires me to be.
When i look at the year6 council, especially the ex-co, i have nothing but respect.
Alister, Arthur, Hans, Van tok, etc. i see many of these people not only able to lead, able to speak, show charisma, work hard, but they do have characters that im able to look up to, and a heart and passion for God.
While when i look at the year5 council nominees, me included, im not able to see that. at least not now. even within the best of us, there are few that would have by the least, the same type of passion, strong character, and love to the school and the students.
Well, even if im not the best speaker, leader, worker.
The least i want to achieve, is to able to sustain an undying passion for God and the school. to shine for Jesus with a more Godly character. and love everyone else above myself.
Other gifts like eloquency or creativity, i leave it to God if He would give it to me.
