Wednesday, April 25, 2007
a post to sort out my thoughts.
todays one of the rare days, which i look back at how i spent it, and how i behaved
and i am totally disgusted at myself
when i did everything i was against, and became someone i hated for a day.
actually it all seems too similar, to what happened december last year - and after that insane trail period last year, i knew God was telling me i need to be more mature.
today i see so much of that immaturity-
seeking attention
angst/emo for small reasons
very conditional love
serious insecurities
heavy reliance on others
totally over reacting
i think theres more, but oh well.
well, from this point in time, im not gonna fail God again, or myself, or others.
things are gonna change for the better.
ill come out of this trail a stronger person, and just be excited for that growth.
anw thanks jim, fab and john for ur hugs in the bus just now which cheered me up when i was feeling down, n sarina for talking.
love all u guys (:
