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Friday, May 18, 2007
Spiritual - High
Hello (:
God gives us choices. He could always force us to love Him, to do the right thing, to live a godly life. But well that wouldn't be love if we didn't choose to do so. So He gave us a choice, to love Him or not.
"its the choices that make us who we are"
is a statement that really hit me today, cause Ive listened to it in a song so many times, but never really paid attention to it. But God really inspired me with it today, so i went back to look at the song's lyrics
The Unwinding Cable Car - Anberlin
Emotive unstable you're like an unwinding cable car
Listening for voices, but it's the choices that make us who we are
Go your own way, even seasons have changed just burn those new leaves over
So self-absorbed you've seemed to ignore the prayers that have already come about
This is the correlation of salvation and love
(Don't drop your arms)
Don't drop your arms, I'll guard your heart
With quiet words I'll lead you in
La lalalala, la la la, la lala, la
La lalalala, la la la, la lala, la
Backing away from the problem of pain you never had a home
You've been misguided, you're hiding in shadows for so very long
Don't you believe that you've been deceived that you're no better than...
The hair in your eyes, it never disguised what you're really thinking of
The lyrics really hit me, because it described how I often behaved. Emotive unstable, listening to voices (following emotions, instincts). How often have i been swayed by emotions, feelings, voices, pressure, fatigue, temptations.
But i always had a choice, and ive often been too weak in my willpower to make the right one, to fight against the voices, and to create discipline and integrity within me.
Well thank God, this period where i have been especially good spiritually, God has showed me so many things, and letting me know more about Christian living. I'm probably at a stage where i am learning to be really independent, to be steady with a foundation of a rock, and not be swayed by conditions and temptations. And of course, getting to a better and more steady walk with God.
Today..
Group 4 project day was alright, thanks to my lovely team of Jim Seet, Bobbie, Mary and Bhuphinder, which made the day really fun (: From smashing up concrete like maniacs, to screwing up the experiment, to filling gloves with water to make "glove people", it was hysterical!
The council meeting after that made me think too, again, about expectations of myself and my personal integrity, of i do what i say i will, if i behave like i should. At this point in time, it doesn't bother me if i get an ex-co position or not. God has called me to try for it, so getting it or not, its part of His plan and best interests for me. Also, I realized i did put up facades, although not that major, because of focusing on acting like im meeting up with expectations instead of really meeting them.
Something else that has been bugging me - is it really the right motive to have that desire to improve myself so bad - to meet up with expectations of people? i dont think i would be so passionate about improving myself if i was not in council. But yet, i do have a passion to shine in my character for God.
Well, after school, went with Ryan to watch spiderman3, and it was just a really amazing and enlightening movie. i totally loved how they explained human nature and choices so nicely. really a movie worth watching.
