Thursday, September 20, 2007
random thoughts that have been running through my head
looking at what everyone else is doing, studying hard and scoring well, actually having a social life, becoming popular, excelling in sports, owning me at breakdancing, working so hard for council, or simply just slacking off and having an insane lot of fun.
i randomly think, why am i spending so much time and effort on God, something that so many think do not exist, that logically is a waste of time in excelling in life - yeah getting my 45 pts on diploma, going OCS in army, getting 5k a month on my first job. Chasing an invisible God and goals which nobody sees and totally throwing away my desire for all these success.
Then, i will get another random thought, as i see the world through these two eyes and think - what does it really mean? we are born into this world and our meaning in life is to.. study hard.. be successful.. raise a family.. make a name.. be happy?
Kyle Koh said this morning about how it seems the only meaning in mans existence is to reproduce (lol) like animals do. success and work? its just what society has dumped onto us. its man created "meaning" in this meaningless world.
I look through my two eyes at the world, and i just have this very very strong doubt. That life is supposed to be about goals like my first million or being an awesome dancer or being a great leader, that life is about surviving each day, getting through our hectic IB schedule that society has dumped upon us. No this isn't life.
Life would mean nothing at all to me without God
only the inventor of an invention can tell you what it is and how it works. Can you imagine if windows XP was invented 25years ago, when there wasn't even air con, and the inventor plopped it in front of you and goes away. you would be thinking "what the pong is this piece of metal?" You would not even know what it is for, lest how to work it.
I also wouldnt know what life is for unless the inventor of this 'life' showed me His manual.
On another random note, I was really drawn to this book, like a calling to buy it, so i spent 30 bucks -.o but okay, its just worldly money. its about coming home to the Lord, focusing alot on maintaining a spiritual life.
