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Monday, October 22, 2007
[ 11:33 PM ]



A little bit on the NJ party
Yes is was awesome, kyensai did a good job (:
Got to know quite alot of new friends, which felt awesome.
The party, the cypher was wild, was fun.
It was simply a super fun night

Will sound like bullshit but here goes
Yeah but a party like that can bring out bad in people. All my old instincts on how to behave to other bboys, to girls, to haters, and so on suddenly revived, and i acted in a way i regret actually.

Well its not the party's fault, i was already screwing up in my spiritual life, in a really weird way that i have never done so before. A very long term problem i think, of being so tired of myself slipping away and so hateful of my lack of consistency that i was losing hope. devils lies

bleh i dont care, i know what the true way in life is, ill try harder, feels like a spiritual war and day to day struggle to me, haha ill pull through, somehow.



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