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Sunday, April 27, 2008
Just gonna do a post that really matters to me. After reading my friends blog im just inspired to post whatever i think
Angel of Mercy
How did you find me?
How did you pick me up again?
Angel of Mercy
How did you move me?
Why am I on my feet again?
And I see you
Whoa Whoa Whoa
I feel you
Whoa Whoa Whoa
Mercy - One Republic
I really love this song, cause i can identify with it so well. Since like march holidays where interschool floorskills mood was on, i have been living a life devoid of God, and just loving the world and all the thrills in it. But in a few weeks time, i knew it was gonna end, when the thrill doesnt fill Gods love.
Then slowly but steadily i began to rise up again, until recently, with rapid growth. I was leading a sinful life, and undeserving of His grace. But He forcefully pulled me back in, which rocks. and now ive never been this strong, never this high up.
I was inspired to start reading the 7 Habits of Highly Effective People again, this time, taking it as a commitment. Its by a christian writer, and many of the things in the bible are paralleled. Things that werent clear to me in the bible was made clear here. And since reading it, ive really been growing rapidly.
I have gone through the past week extremely disciplined and organized, and ive never had such large work output before, and even without much stress. Ive also learnt to totally understand where other are coming from, and it results in a view of nonjudgement on anyone but understanding the perspectives of others crafted by their past experiences, insecurities, influences, character weaknesses and strengths, and so on.
I guess yesterday was the perfect example of the happiness this change has given me haha.
Woke up by Sharry at 9. she called to find study partner - at 9am lol. So went out to macs to meet her and have breakfast. Then spent 2 hours at the library chionging geog revision. We went back to my house for lunch, then helped her dye her hair black - haha no more brown hair. I put some on mine too but no effect lah. Yeah i thought it was really meaningful quality time haha and i got alot of work done too.
Took a nap and it was time for session. I was just very happy during the whole session cause i chose to be. Trained freaking hard and improved alot, until my body gave way lah lol. I guess the important part was the fellowship again. I do feel closer to the crew now, and able to communicate with everyone better. The ending was awesome too, i always spend the last minutes of my saturday night having a can drink in my hand after a tiring session and talking t sharry by the pool, and this time, spent thinking about how awesome the day was.
If there were a single thing that made me better now, it was the knowledge that every second of my life i have a choice. Choices are independent actions, uninfluenced by anything in your head. You can make the choice to pray even in your lowest most sinful times. And this consciousnesses of choice let be direct my thoughts instead of letting them flow with impulses, and behave differently from my habitual scripts.
Peter Parker was right, you always have a choice lol.
